When he opened his eyes to the new world, only thing known to him was LOVE…love of parents n relatives..enjoying the embrace and adorance at home..
Even as few years passed all he had seen was truth, innocence, respect for others and their feelings, hardly faced any envy, hatred or deceit till then. Maybe only in the form of studies in school (but that never affected him much as he was a mediocre student) or in the form of competing in cricket in evening with his friends (as he considered them).
He successfully passed boards and stepped in the college.. quite excited to enter the new world.. to experience the outer world, hostel lyff.. continued was his belief in everyone.. continued was his reliance in his friends(as he considered them)…
But now at every phase, at every step, things started appearing sophisticated. He gradually realized that he was living in the love cocoon till now…but now too late to realize…shattered was his all-love-n-happiness world..
He was becoming conscious..every soul is dark..world is full of cobwebs..they convolved more and more as tried to unravel it…become more enigmatic as tried to comprehend it..
bewildered..He found that he has also become a part of the chaotic horse-race of trickery, sham in which if he doesn’t run then would eventually be trampled under the dissemblance.
“Maybe by Darwin’s theory of Survival of the Fittest, being UNFIT for this world, will be eliminated”–
This fear instigated him to transform, otherwise he will be throttled..
He was suffocating, but the only way to pull through was to break away his habits, his constitution, he needed a make-up, needed to hide transparency..if not opaque then at least translucent, can’t accept a single word uncurved, unbent.. weigh his thoughts, his actions, polish everything he speaks, needs to be witty, bend everything he utters, can’t be direct…otherwise would be considered “insane/dull-witted/moronic” or in decent words “childish”..
To vindicate himself from these charges, he gradually instilled and implanted the new rules within himself, transfigured his disposition.
He must GROW-UP!
Now after years, as a GROWN-UP, in case or by mistake, if he looks back in his past, he thinks “HOW DUMB I WAS!”
When he opened his eyes to the new world, only thing known to him was LOVE…love of parents n relatives..enjoying the embrace and adorance at home..
Even as few years passed all he had seen was truth, innocence, respect for others and their feelings, hardly faced any envy, hatred or deceit till then. Maybe only in the form of studies in school (but that never affected him much as he was a mediocre student) or in the form of competing in cricket in evening with his friends (as he considered them).He successfully passed boards and stepped in the college.. quite excited to enter the new world.. to experience the outer world, hostel lyff.. continued was his belief in everyone.. continued was his reliance in his friends(as he considered them)…
But now at every phase, at every step, things started appearing sophisticated. He gradually realized that he was living in the love cocoon till now…but now too late to realize…shattered was his all-love-n-happiness world..
He was becoming conscious..every soul is dark..world is full of cobwebs..they convolved more and more as tried to unravel it…become more enigmatic as tried to comprehend it..
bewildered..He found that he has also become a part of the chaotic horse-race of trickery, sham in which if he doesn’t run then would eventually be trampled under the dissemblance.
“Maybe by Darwin’s theory of Survival of the Fittest, being UNFIT for this world, will be eliminated”–
This fear instigated him to transform, otherwise he will be throttled..
He was suffocating, but the only way to pull through was to break away his habits, his constitution, he needed a make-up, needed to hide transparency..if not opaque then at least translucent, can’t accept a single word uncurved, unbent.. weigh his thoughts, his actions, polish everything he speaks, needs to be witty, bend everything he utters, can’t be direct…otherwise would be considered “insane/dull-witted/moronic” or in decent words “childish”..
To vindicate himself from these charges, he gradually instilled and implanted the new rules within himself, transfigured his disposition.
He must GROW-UP!
Now after years, as a GROWN-UP, in case or by mistake, if he looks back in his past, he thinks “HOW DUMB I WAS!”
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